Pollution, Scraps and Leftovers
Green of complexion
You glisten like an Emerald in the rain.
You accept all our impurities,
You are the heart chakra that openly receives the leftovers that we have to offer,
the ones that are no use to anyone but you.
To you we can bring our shame and our pain,
You can hear our broken refrain!
No one can Love you, for you are the one who Loves like no other.
Not only do you Love in the sweet-scented places,
But you Love in the rotting flesh of yesteryear,
you never withhold your Love.
To you we bow.“
The Green Woman Beyond
Matangi is the Outcast Goddess. She is the woman who does not align to conventional standard. Not that she is a rebel who rages against the machine of modernity.
Matangi is not against convention. It’s just that she does not abide by its restrictive codes. Her vision extends beyond the bounds of normality. Matangi is not a woman with something to prove.
She doesn’t scoff at the ways of ignorance and injustice. Matangi is possessed of an equal vision that accepts all as it is. The Shakti of her vision is put towards the out-of-bound mysteries.
When we oppose something strongly, we give a big portion of our Shakti to it and end up depleted… or we might find ourselves ever in a position of grinding the axe of our power upon the blunt edges of that which we oppose. An axe can only take so much grinding until there is nothing left of it.
All opposition ends with Matangi. She brings us to the vision of empowered innocence.
The Green Wild Soul
Matangi teaches us to take back our power. Whether that power be mental, emotional or physical. Matangi teaches us to un-invest our spiritual powers from the codes of societal, ancestral, spiritual and moral forms that they may be bound-up with.
As we bring the power away from standards, we discover a vast amount of Shakti that can launch us into uncharted waters. Matangi unfolds the green vision of the wild Soul in the sea of eternity.
Matangi can be worshiped by any means, if the worship is sincere. She is often worshiped with leftover food scraps and normally taboo items and forms of devotion. Ucchishta means polluted, it is usually taken to mean scraps and leftovers, but encompasses all that is considered dirty, forbidden, unclean and unholy.
If we make contact with the powers of Matangi, she delivers us from notions of good and bad, she brings an empowered acceptance of the way things are, and helps us to resign the seat of judgement.
Matangi is a potent spiritual sphere of consciousness that accepts all things. If we are truly to learn her lesson, we must step into the empowered stance of accepting all things.
Matangi is no docile victim. She is an intensely Ugra Devi (fearsome goddess). Her stance is so empowered that everything is accepted by her. Nothing oppresses her, nothing aggravates her, with nothing to resist or be aggravated by, Matangi has double the force of anything that upholds a standard.
Finding Matangi within, is the empowering of the Heart Chakra. The Heart Chakra resonates at the Green frequency, Matangi too, is green.
Her colour signifies the full power of the wild heart. Hers is not a heart with an agenda or a preference, her heart loves all equally.
Anything offered with sincerity pleases Matangi. That which is rotting and unholy pleases Matangi. She accepts a pearl and ruby necklace just as readily as a bone on a string. If the bone has rotting flesh upon it, Matangi accepts it just as much as she would a box of exclusive pralines.
The sincerity and devotion of in what is offered to her, becomes the most important thing when approaching Matangi. What is offered is of little consequence, it is the force behind the offering.
She is not a woman to be flattered or bought.
When we approach her worship. We are made to look at the fancies within us that take delight at flattery, and the parts of us are ready to jump like a puppy if we are given what we like.
In her ritual work, we are asked:
Which parts of us become pleased at praise and honour?
Which parts of us like to be told what we want to hear?
Matangi might be the only woman to tell us what we do not want to hear. Sometimes the truth is best left alone because truth can hurt?
The Evergreen Heart
Matangi is the Goddess who is actually pleased when we offer her the parts of our soul that are no longer edible… the parts that are kept hidden and out of sight (even unto ourselves), perhaps in shame.
The hidden parts carry a profound power, the more repressed, the greater their power becomes.
Hidden repressed things become a cause of perversion and sickness. The underground forces start to rule us unless they are brought to the heart. Matangi is the Woman who accepts them with an evergreen heart.
Those parts of us that are old and rotting and are offered to Matangi in her Rituals.
If we have habits that are standing in the way of our progress and polluting our lives, Matangi is the Goddess who opens the trapdoor and shows us a way to work with, and handle the noxious eruptions of the soul.
If our health and relationships are not in flow, then Matangi happily takes the old scraps that rott away and pollute the sacred heart, that is, if we even offer them to her.
The old scraps in our soul might be something we come to oppose, whether we call it the ego or the devil to be conquered and destroyed, it amounts to the same thing. If the power of our old scraps and wounds of soul is not reclaimed, it can lead to addictions.
Addiction does not only mean addiction to substances, overwork, and the usual things we might associate it with. Addiction also pertains to holding tight to a particular set of beliefs and modes of behaviour.
The need for drama is a subtle addiction, perhaps one that is quenched through relationships and even movies.
Being driven to action out of necessity is a subtle form of addiction that we might nurture and justify as a wholesome one, because it is in pursuit of good things. Anything that comes with a drive is the very opposite of freedom, and so it could be classed as an addiction.
Often our addictions and unhealthy habits are difficult to release.
On the one hand they are defences that can provide a distraction from facing our inner wounds, and on the other hand, they are often a source of shame and may be kept hidden and secret – even from ourselves.
Matangi blesses our shame with the Hand of a healing mother.
Matangi gladly takes our rotting pollution if we but embrace it enough to give to her. She stands like a mirror that reflects the inherent power within things. Those places we might see as the very opposite of power and life might be the ones where it is most present.
To face her, is to face ourselves in the most stagnant of places.
With Matangi, there is no moving around the issue,
there is no escape from oneself,
there is no rising above or dropping below,
there is only – going to the Heart of the matter.
Matangi is a shameless outcast Goddess.
All so-called Taboos are looked at by her emerald green eyes.
She is the outcast Goddess who isn’t offered a place in polite society,
but without her, polite society insidiously pollutes itself in an unseen manner.
“You may come to me in happiness
Or you may come to me in grief
You may come to in your deepest faith
You may come in disbelief.”
L.Cohen – Lover Lover Lover
Just as the lyrics above express. Matangi does not care how we come to her. Her lesson is that we even attempt to come to her at all.
Whether we come to her in filthy rags, or whether we come to her in royal dress. Matangi will take and bless whatever we have to offer.
The Chaturthi, or fourth lunar night synchronises with the ritual of Matangi.
We find her Jayanti ritual on this lunar night. Chaturthi is a time of psychic imbalance where the pull and push of lunar magnetism is split.
Within this unstable time, the possibility to find the Ucchishta (Hidden rotting areas within our soul) is supported as the inner psychic nature is not so solid under this lunar influence. Chaturthi days loosen-up the psychic nature.
Chaturthi rituals within the destabilising lunar influence are to be grounded in a solid pursuit and have a heavy and focussed character.
The focus and spirit of Matangi ritual, is to offer to her the Ucchishta elements within us.
When we release the Ucchishta, which may have become the foundation of our being, and the cause of our many impulses and pursuits, we discover a secret world beyond the familiar.
Giving up ourselves is a radical undertaking that has radical rewards. It is not something that can necessarily be done in one fell swoop. The techniques and path of Tantra gradually loosens solidified psychic matter and offers us way to release the structures and edifices of the constructed self. Matangi reveals the unadulterated soul beyond all constructs. This Chaturti Moon falls within the Lunar House (Nakshatra) of the Deer Star Mrgasirsa (click HERE to read about this star constellation).
Our personal history, might be gathered with an onward rolling snowball effect. The snowball of our being might be built of many obsolete and redundant things that have come to fix our character and reality? Matangi is the Heart that melts the snowball ball of the formulated self, she offers a vast vision of what lays beyond the threshold of personal identity.
When history is not there, then the familiar self starts to vanish.
When the familiar self that we live with and within begins to fade away, then we have a vast amount of liberated energy which is no longer invested into the familiar structure of the self.
This liberated psychic energy is the power of Siddhi.
That is the meaning behind why Matangi is called the Mother of Siddhi. She be the one who imparts magical power.
Tantric ritual upon the fourth lunar night, involves many careful formulas for focussing stray psychic energies. We shall find our stay psychic energies by way of ritual and attempt to release structures as we move towards the great encompassing heart of Matangi. Hers is a heart that stands beyond and between all form.
Her vision is the vision of the all-exclusive Heart.
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